Between Be In Between I constantly walk a tightrope Never quite giving up, never quite committing Lingering in an state of purgatorial limbo An incessant internal torment My soul is never at rest Permanently caught In Between tween
Rain I feel like today is a good day to write.. The patter of rain in the background the soundtrack to my lyrics The gentle thunder like rumblings from within Calm yet restless darkness with brief flashes of light My heart pours onto the page bursting from heavy purple rain clouds A seemingly endless reservoir flowing from a broken dam Now lulling me off to sleep till it just becomes white noise Infusing with my dreams washing away my worries
Floetry Corner - "Broken Dreams" by emcee Problem-Addict
*Note: I get inspired to write verses after whilst smoking weed and listening to hip hop instrumentals I randomly search on Youtube. I felt this beat was special, stirring deep emotions, simultaneously conjuring both depressing motivating feelings... I posted the link to the instrumental so you can try to rap along! 🙂
Old School Hip-Hop // Rap Instrumental | Rotten Mind | Decibel Lirical https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BRjZsP1FOT8&ab_channel=DecibelLirical
"This beat...bring out my inner sadness, fuck 'rose-colored' all I got's tinted glasses / Like a hand I can't stand this, I feel bad, fuck sad, this is madness / Ill and manic, pop pills, still an addict, shit is tragic, got skills, but still imagine / that I'm livin' in a palace, filled with lavish things, and if I wanna leave could just spin an atlas / But I feel the axis...still the fact is, payin' bills, still sleep on a shitty mattress / Thinking bout life, just tryna stay afloat... but I keep sinking back into blackness ('ahhhhhhh') / I suppose hanging myself is the fastest - way to stop these feelings, havin' flashbacks like a hit of acid / In a panic - almost go insane, overload my brain - until it crashes (boom!) / Suddenly I feel the fire...like I lit some matches, throwin' on sticks, twigs and branches, until it catches / Let me out of this cage, so I can let loose and spit rage, till all that's left of this stage is a pit of ashes / Doesn't matter if you got a God-given talent, gotta balance that shit with a vision, stick with it if / it's a passion, gotta make it a mission to start buildin' habits, that'll get you to the next level / of this challenge, with practice yo skill advances, begin to master and move on to bigger pastures / Like lennon just imagine where you'll be in ten years...picture chillin' in yo mansion / But like a car gotta start now - cause time's tickin fast, and in a flash yo dreams begin to shatter and die like they were given cancer... ('and all the shit I thought did didn't matter')" -freestyle by problemaddict
Trapped I feel trapped... A flickering moth, abducted by the light in an eternal state of phototaxis A struggling rat, caught in a mousetrap gradually accepting the thought of death A cocky roach, appendages paralyzed by amber molasses feelers erratically flailing in distress A tiny ant, drowning in a pool of honey gulping every last, sweet breath of air A jittery fly, tangled in spider's web unwittingly preparing itself to be its next meal A busy bee, suddenly engulfed in green teeth while greedily drinking at its deceitfully sweet nectar A naive rabbit, snagged by metal cuffs wildly spasming with each attempted escape A fluttering butterfly, snatched in soft mesh impulsively flapping its wings to take flight A dangling fish, held proudly from angler's hook desperately gasping for atoms of air A restless dog, tightening its leash with each futile tug foolishly strangling itself to get ahead A tamed tiger, restlessly stalking its cage endlessly pacing, awaiting the day its at last released An imprisoned primate, thrashing about in its manufactured enclosure painfully aware of its dire and futile predicament thinking Let me out I want to live
Stuck I am stuck An invisible force holding me down Gravity binding me to the ground I try to get up, but I feel three times my weight I want to get up, but this constraint is overpowering I go to get up, but I am unable to move Caught in a Venus flytrap Feeling inevitable death but doing nothing about it No one can help me I am stuck
Supersymmetry I am me, but there is another me Completely opposite Moving in the right direction Unknowingly spinning me backwards in the opposite direction A contradictory pair Dancing through time Both partners unaware of the other Invisibly influencing the other I wish I could detach and just float away So I could map out my own path Unaffected by myself
Sun Sun filters in Forming a rectangular shape Penetrating my safe enclosure Reminding me The outside world still exists If only I could harness it to power my body To get out of bed Now that’s solar power!
End of Covid (or Spring is Here!) People out Children playing Mothers shouting Dads catching Babies crying Friends laughing Joggers running Athletes training Couples smiling Guys joking Kids frolicking Teens flirting Birds chirping Cars driving Ambulance wailing Babies screaming Dogs barking Planes gliding Gangs hanging Crowds gathering Bands playing Music blasting Cyclists cruising Bells clanging Men working Seniors sitting Boys chasing Girls giggling Balls dribbling Clouds parting Sun shining Ice melting Mood shifting Depression lifting THIS IS THE END OF COVID
finally! I'm finally going to... start a podcast! who the fuck would listen to that? perform at open mic night! who would find you funny? apply for that job! why the fuck would they hire you? get in shape! what shape? start jogging! yeah, to the convenience store maybe start my business! are you joking? get my life in order! what life? I am ready! no you're not This time I'm going to do it! I don't think so Today's the day! maybe tomorrow I'm gonna start on it first thing... we'll all be waiting with bated breath
hold your head up How have I, once so proud to share with others become so despondent hiding away in the darkness of isolation How have I aspired to remain anonymous when all I strive for is notoriety, How come I am holding my head in shame when I used to carry it so high How have I sunk into such a deep hole when I used to see over the tallest peaks How have I given up when there’s still so much left to do so much to share so much yet to be done… For now I'll remain in the dark where I belong.
c brtnik 